I’m back home from the pageant!
I didn’t win.
I didn’t even place.
I thought I was going to win Mrs. Congeniality, only because some of the contestants told me they voted for me…and c’mon….I AM MRS. CONGENIALITY! Girl, please.
Despite the lack of the crown, I’m overwhelmingly happy. I’m proud of myself for doing this pageant…for stepping out of my comfort zone and following the path that God is leading me down.
Strangers came up to me after the pageant to tell me how great I looked and that I did a great job. Their words meant a lot to me, because truth be told, I was a nervous wreck!
My friends…the ones I told about the pageant were there…Mama Bev, Heather, Jen, Kai and Missa… cheering me on. Having them there touched my heart in so many ways. I know I’m blessed. Ladies, if you’re reading this…I love you and I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I made some lifelong friends now…Diedra and Devona, one made second runner up, the other first runner up, both were my picks to win. Diedra led us in a prayer circle before the pageant and the two of those women are not only my new friends, but my sisters in Christ. I’m happy and blessed I met them.
I didn’t get a crown. Or the glory associated with it. And that’s okay. I knew I was a winner when my husband who is brutally honest, said to me, “Jaime, you were very beautiful up there. I’m proud of you.”
It was worth it all just to hear the man I love and admire say those words.
I took a risk and did something that is far removed from the realm of my reality. In my heart, I succeeded! I pranced around in a bathing suit like no one’s business and was OKAY. You have no idea how proud I am of myself. I faced my fears regarding my body, my appearance, and I pray I encouraged someone in the audience. (Like duct tape and support bras ARE YOUR FRIENDS!) I wasn’t Jaime Lozada from Phenix City, AL, abused and disregarded…I am Jaime Chase. Wife, Mother and Child of God.
I am a winner.
I DID IT!